I agree it must be jealousy based.
She has been retired for a long time, lives alone, did not integrate well into the area she lives in, so she says and keeps bringing up Covid during which she went nuts disregarding everything, wearing one mask for months, going on protests…, until she got sick. During that time some of her friends were breaking the rules and seeing each other even during lockdown. She keeps saying those friendships have remained, the others a sort of vanished off the radar.
I work in the medical field and taking risks and going to hospitals was unethical in my world. I did get sick myself several times. I was like a magnet for Covid and it took a toll on my general health.
So why feed me the Covid era. It was difficult for our company, everyone got sick and not the best time to do business.
She, on the other hand had a blast. She had her supporters, I had to hide her messages on Facebook, couldn’t stand them. I forgot about that.
Now she only goes off at me and tbh, I can’t see why, what is she doing that is so outstanding, nothing. Just acting like she has the best life ever, that is when I don’t feel well and make a mistake of calling her.
When I am well and full of energy she makes sure to poison the space, getting angry, something is always off.
Now that I wrote all of this down, I wonder what in the world I still call her for.
I met her quite soon after my divorce and appreciated her friendship, valued it. I took the good and the bad, but it was never as bad and continuously this bad. She had her moods, but balanced out after a while.
We spent a lot of time together, went on vacations, even took some courses together. I thought she was ambitious at work and she was good at interior decorating and helped me with my that new flat I bought.
These memories are what I still hope for, but I have to accept that people change and there is no going back.
It is sad in a way. Having a long time friend is rare and I was probably still hopeful.
